Screaming My Name

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What I started as
And what I became
Fighting me for myself
I am screaming my name

There's maybe someone else
Who has taken my place
Am calling out to him
Screaming my name

In the mirror, there's a face
Whose name I misplace
Lost within him, maybe I am there
Calling myself I am screaming my name

Bound up in chains
Broken and in pain
Asking for salvation
I am screaming my name

For long I have played this game
Chasing after my bane
Maybe it's just me
I am screaming my name

I can't play this game, born again
I refuse to be tamed
But they are baying for my blood
They are screaming my name

I have to rise above them
I have to break the chains
I stand alone in the Colosseum
Everyone's screaming my name

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