My cross to bear

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Alone in a dark, rainy night
Gripped with anxiety and fear
And no, I can't share this one
'Cause this is my cross to bear

Shaking up on the inside
Yet putting a calm veneer
Can't find another soul in sight
For this is my cross to bear

Broken within and carrying on
Tempered flesh with scars as souvenirs
Walking it off with a smile on my face
As this is my cross to bear

Life is but a cruel mistress
And death is the mysterious lover
Someday, we shall embrace, till then
This is my cross to bear

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